I'm still alive

I think I will ramble for a few minutes, just so you know I am still alive.  It has been a very full couple of weeks and I have many things on my mind that I am trying to process.

School has been going well.  We are now halfway through the year.  If we maintain a good pace, we should finish roughly near my due date.  I have had a frantic need to have all their schoolwork lined up for the next, well, year and a half.  I am trying to stick with the Heart of Wisdom science and history rotation.  We will be heading into year 2.  I have decided to get a jump start, so we are in the middle of studying oceans right now.  Then we will spend some time on Ancient Greece.  That has been a tricky one for me.  I am trying to teach my children to think hebraically rather than greek.  How do I maintain that teaching when every study out there glorifies the Greeks, even though they ran around naked, abandoned their babies, and worshipped false gods?  The answer: Do it myself. 

Which leads me to another thing that has been heavy on my mind, the sanctity of life.  I struggle with the view our society has of life.  Even "believers" in the church, who march to stop abortions, will raise their eyebrows when you dare to have another child.  Am I missing something here?  I am allowing YHVH to bless me with another life to raise for Him, but that is not a wise choice?  Before which of my children was I supposed to stop having children?  Torah resounds with a very clear message: CHOOSE LIFE! 
Moses said it well:
 (Deu 30:19) I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore choose life, that you and your offspring may live,


(Deu 30:20) loving YHVH your Elohim, obeying his voice and holding fast to him, for he is your life and length of days, that you may dwell in the land that YHVH swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them."

The Jews teach that to save one life is to save the world, paraphrased by memory.  Then I have saved six and hope I will have the opportunity to save more.  Life is precious, and we should reach for it with open arms, whether it be another baby, or a gramma who can no longer take care of herself.  CHOOSE LIFE!

I was blessed to learn that a friend of ours was blessed with a beautiful 5 lb. baby boy, and got him circumcised on the eighth day.  Praise YHVH!

Hopefully very soon I will know when I am due and who is in that big belly of mine.  My ultrasound is in just over a week.  Be praying for us as we have a three hour drive one way.  Hopefully before then I will have finished Doug's sweater and my final college assignment, which includes the chapters in my book from Beresheet to Shemot.

Writing has also been on my mind alot lately.  I feel such an urgency and a vacuum.  We need Torah based materials to teach our children.  But the resources available are few and far between.  (I am thankful for the ones I have found.)  I tried my hand at writing a science unit study this week, just to see if I had what it took.  I enjoyed working on it very much, but yesterday as I was writing, I felt a tremendous heaviness.  I asked YHVH, What do you want me to write?  "Torah, torah, torah.  My people need Torah."  So I will write about Torah.  I don't know near enough, but the value is not in handing people a pretty package with all the work done.  The value is in sending them on the journey to find the jewels for themselves.

I think I shall stop for now.  I am heading for a nice soak in the tub, which will hopefully relieve the pain and achiness I have been having in my thigh.  I assume it is due to the rapid shift in weight I have been experiencing. 

I hope you all have a wonderful Shabbat.  I am looking forward to resting after the busy week I have had.  Shabbat Shalom!