What is my blog about? It's about Torah family living. It's about letting Torah affect our daily lives, from mealtime to bedtime, homeschooling to farm chores.


Friday, February 11, 2011

I'm still alive

I think I will ramble for a few minutes, just so you know I am still alive.  It has been a very full couple of weeks and I have many things on my mind that I am trying to process.

School has been going well.  We are now halfway through the year.  If we maintain a good pace, we should finish roughly near my due date.  I have had a frantic need to have all their schoolwork lined up for the next, well, year and a half.  I am trying to stick with the Heart of Wisdom science and history rotation.  We will be heading into year 2.  I have decided to get a jump start, so we are in the middle of studying oceans right now.  Then we will spend some time on Ancient Greece.  That has been a tricky one for me.  I am trying to teach my children to think hebraically rather than greek.  How do I maintain that teaching when every study out there glorifies the Greeks, even though they ran around naked, abandoned their babies, and worshipped false gods?  The answer: Do it myself. 

Which leads me to another thing that has been heavy on my mind, the sanctity of life.  I struggle with the view our society has of life.  Even "believers" in the church, who march to stop abortions, will raise their eyebrows when you dare to have another child.  Am I missing something here?  I am allowing YHVH to bless me with another life to raise for Him, but that is not a wise choice?  Before which of my children was I supposed to stop having children?  Torah resounds with a very clear message: CHOOSE LIFE! 
Moses said it well:
 (Deu 30:19) I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore choose life, that you and your offspring may live,


(Deu 30:20) loving YHVH your Elohim, obeying his voice and holding fast to him, for he is your life and length of days, that you may dwell in the land that YHVH swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them."

The Jews teach that to save one life is to save the world, paraphrased by memory.  Then I have saved six and hope I will have the opportunity to save more.  Life is precious, and we should reach for it with open arms, whether it be another baby, or a gramma who can no longer take care of herself.  CHOOSE LIFE!

I was blessed to learn that a friend of ours was blessed with a beautiful 5 lb. baby boy, and got him circumcised on the eighth day.  Praise YHVH!

Hopefully very soon I will know when I am due and who is in that big belly of mine.  My ultrasound is in just over a week.  Be praying for us as we have a three hour drive one way.  Hopefully before then I will have finished Doug's sweater and my final college assignment, which includes the chapters in my book from Beresheet to Shemot.

Writing has also been on my mind alot lately.  I feel such an urgency and a vacuum.  We need Torah based materials to teach our children.  But the resources available are few and far between.  (I am thankful for the ones I have found.)  I tried my hand at writing a science unit study this week, just to see if I had what it took.  I enjoyed working on it very much, but yesterday as I was writing, I felt a tremendous heaviness.  I asked YHVH, What do you want me to write?  "Torah, torah, torah.  My people need Torah."  So I will write about Torah.  I don't know near enough, but the value is not in handing people a pretty package with all the work done.  The value is in sending them on the journey to find the jewels for themselves.

I think I shall stop for now.  I am heading for a nice soak in the tub, which will hopefully relieve the pain and achiness I have been having in my thigh.  I assume it is due to the rapid shift in weight I have been experiencing. 

I hope you all have a wonderful Shabbat.  I am looking forward to resting after the busy week I have had.  Shabbat Shalom!

9 comments:

Katie said...

Great to hear from you after a while :) I feel your pain with the school science. In AP Bio we are starting the first (of 4) chapters on Evolution. Should be fun... :P Love you guys and keep me posted with the ultrasound, please :)

Heidi said...

Hi Katie! Just remember you are created and loved, and feel sorry for those who don't believe that. Hello to everyone else, too. My ultrasound is the 21st.

Andi said...

Heidi,
I hear you about the teaching of the Greeks verse teaching of the Word. Where is the line to wise and by who's standards, I still struggle...because 90 percent of our waking and working life is Greek/Roman based...sometimes as a mom it makes me want to scream.....So rest ....and write what He tells you to write...and love...LIFE!

Heidi said...

Thanks, Andi! By the way, if I remember right, you recently got the HOW Adam to Messiah. I was concerned it would be too advanced, but do you think I could use it for help with approach, ie looking at cultures scripturally rather than studying Greek mythology?

Andi said...

Heidi,
I have not used it yet, only browsed through it, I pray so..because that was my heart's intent....I hope to post on it as I browse through and use it....not much help I know....

singing mama said...

Heidi I'm so glad you're still here :)
Hope this week is a lovely blessed week for you!
Luv Donna

Peterson Party said...

Hi Heidi! How are you feeling? How much longer until your ultrasound? Will you be finding out the baby's gender or just if there is one or maybe multiples??? :)

Heidi said...

I will find out everything I can lol! I feel like I have been waiting forever. My ultrasound is Mon. Feb. 21 and I'm about ready to count hours. I didn't find out the gender with the first few. I found out with Elisha. I like to know. We knew Elisha was a boy, and we called him by name for 20 weeks before he was born, and I felt so close to him.
I'm weary of not knowing how far along or how many. We had to wait because of Doug's work schedule. Because he's a pilot, they require a lot of notice for vacation time.
By the way, I think you need a congrats, too lol!

Peterson Party said...

I agree - I have a "need to know". We found out the gender of our girls before they born. I'll be anxious to hear what you find out on Monday!
Thanks for the congrats. We are looking forward to expanding our family :)

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